10:30 PM
Why today I stay awake
No pressure on my back
No dangling eyelids asking for rest
Just the notion of day
Everything I tried hasn’t worked
I’m incomparably awake
My throat parched
And no quantity of water
can quench my thirst
I lie on my bed
And wait
For only time knows what
But what if nothing Happens
just
My insomnia attack
A duel
Of sleep versus awake
And I know sleep
Is not triumphant.
11:00 pm
I’m still awake
Only animated still
What should I do?
That’s the question I want to know
But I get no answer
It’s the dead of Night
and I’m living
Stirring, shaking, moving, Jumping, whining, yelling, all but sleeping.
If this was Saturday I Would have had a piece of
Unlucky luck
I could watch Saturday Night Live
And have the time fly
But no
This is not Saturday
But
Wednesday, the day of the hump day of the camel
12:00
It’s midnight
But it’s not the new year
The Insomnia strikes
Again and again
Sleep lost the war
And now I’m suffering
I can’t run from the enemy I can only face him
As he holds me a hostage of war
Locked in a cold cage
No door to escape
The bars are too small for my body to squeeze through
And me awake in this world of the darkness and i’m still living
And thriving in the world of the darkness
The are hot but the bars of the cag of insomnia
Cold, my hands are
hot but i’m still
cold
Cold from the war
Cold from the battle.
But why can’t I
slee…
4:00 AM
Again
Why?
I fell asleep a while ago
But my Insomnia is back
And robust
Again and again
It’s 4:00 Am and I still can’t sleep.
Maybe I should just stop trying to sleep.
…uhh…
Insomnia